Allergies are killing me!!

I've been having the hardest time sleeping lately. Waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose...stupid nose... due to this I've been feeling so frail. I'm not used to feeling so slow and defeated going to work - I'm not even sick! Speaking of work, I've been getting pretty good money from work so hopefully I can afford a class!! Clearly I haven't been working out since I've been feeling so weak. I haven't been eating so great either...ahem...cheesecake and pasta is healthy though, right...?
Talk is cheap. Its so easy to psych yourself up to do greater things but then you get lazy and sometimes you don't even have the energy to face the world.
I saw an advertisement for Dove about how they're trying to gain more self esteem on girls. I think it's fantastic! As an actress I find it so hard to get ahead because of the competition. It's not just about talent these days... the girls I'm up against are sizes 2-6. Even if I was an amazing actress, I wouldn't get as much of a chance landing roles being a size 8. That's why I'm always slapping my wrist for not working out everyday and eating cheesecake. It's so unfair that you have so many actors of different shapes and sizes with no problem getting work. Majority of actresses HAVE to be small and pretty. You can count on your hand the actresses with "character" but when it comes to actors, they have it a lot easier. Micheal Cera who - let's face it - isn't your traditional leading man, but that awkwardness he has works for him and he's the leading man of the decade! Nerds are in! Yet, even if they want the nerd girl, she still is gorgeous. Hell, Ugly Betty (America Ferrera) is lovely!!
So that's my rant! Till next time