Life's not justice

I can't get over my anger towards the world and it's politics. I know I said I would stop talking about politics, but this is about humanity, not about which party to vote for. I feel like I can't keep sitting here waiting for the government to screw over more people from their hard earned money. Everyone is struggling and you have these millionaires trying to squeeze more money from these hard working people. They receive their big bonuses while screwing over consumers. For example, condos being poorly constructed but charging an arm and a leg to own. I think people need to start taking a stand. A stand against the government trying to tax us to pay off their insane spending of OUR money and a stand up as a consumer for quality!! I don't know how, but I really hope we find a way. I have no idea how to take a stand other than maybe getting a movement going. Apparently You Tube has one billion hits a day so maybe I can have my voice heard there. Maybe I could write a column...who knows, the world is my oyster and there are too many things I want to do-I think my head will explode. Maybe I will do what every other comic does and use my words to make people laugh at the whole situation but still have no one really do anything.

And I fainted...again

It's like my personal life reflects my career life. It keeps me on my toes all the time. I can never let my guard down because when I do...I fall flat on my face (figuratively and literally). I have a fainting disorder and anything can trigger a faint, especially dehydration, lack of food, standing for too long, whatever. I don't faint too often. It's been a few times a year lately.
Anywho the point is, I have to get my whole everything in check if I want to move forward. Get my eating habits, my relationships, my money, career, everything is going to the check out counter!
Now, it's the organizing and following through with it all is the problem. OOOHHHHH well. I'll figure it out.

And the beat goes on...

The story of my life. Even when things get amazing, life goes on and it passes and then comes right back. I'm going to have to get used to my life being such a roller-coaster. I'll get jobs here and there but nothing is forever and that's something I really need to remember. The only thing I just started getting used to was KNOWING I have a permanent partner in crime. Everything (other than family) has been temporary at some point. Nothing in this business ever lasts. I have to keep pushing until I'm dead basically. There's always going to be another project, another plan, another goal.
I'm back to the drawing board to see what else I can do to get myself out there. I have a couple scripts I think I can create that has potential to sell or get made. Hell, if they can make "Bring It On: 15" then I'm sure one of my films can be made. When I think about it, there's so much I want to do and experience in my life it seems like it's all miles away, but I just need to hang in there because I can taste it. I've already had such amazing moments that no one has ever experienced or possibly dreamed to experience. I need to keep reminding myself to count my blessings and push myself to do better. Knowing my lazy ass, I have to!
Here it goes... round 13240876

WOOO!!!

Soooo I went on my very first audition that I got from my new agent the other day. It was for a CBC radio commercial... and guess who landed the role... that's right this moi!!! WOOO!!!

So excited! It's also the first time my agent sent me out, so hopefully she will know the fury and get me a lot more auditions! I also have the chance to be an apprentice to join Actra! I don't know for sure but my agent said she thinks I'll still be able to be a part of my web sketch troupe if I'm in the union so that will be perfect!! I'm so happy I could pee my pants right now!!! Oh wait...I just did!! Ahem... not really.

Not to mention I could really use the money right now. Things are going really well right now I'm so excited! My first meeting went really well with my troupe, I just finished wrapping a short film and tomorrow I will be filming a commercial! This is one crazy ass week!! Keep it coming!!

The blessing meeter is going to explode!

I'm visiting my folks at the moment and for some reason it feels like Christmas... I'm not sure if it's because I'm FREEZING or... no it's because I'm freezing. It's so strange to sleep in my old bed sometimes. It's like you went through so much in one room and then it's a museum peice and going back to see it is like reliving everything again...anyone else get that feeling? Just me?
It's so nice to see my parents. It's like going back to basics of life when I see them. My mind gets so clouded with what I need to do that the mix of quiet suburbia and my parents seem to clear my mind. I have that sense of calm when I'm with my boyfriend and thank god I do or I'd be a mess. I already am so what does that mean??
I am so proud of where I came from. I didn't have a rough life, I have a nice childhood and parents that raised me right. I learned that the important things in life are...money - ha! gotcha!
No, good friends, family and having fun. What is the point if you can't enjoy life? Money isn't money anymore anyway! It's just numbers...Congress proved that. Hey, if the country can be millions (or trillions in some cases...ahem....ahem...) in debt then what's a couple grand right?
I see the country as a little hypocritical if you ask me... the government tries to be a good parent and encourage their little ones to do the right thing to prevent heartache in the future. Guess what, life happens and you need to spend a little to move on. Or to make yourself feel pretty... come on now... we can't have poor AND ugly people all over the place... imagine the chaos!! In case some of you can't read sarcasm...that was not sarcasm.... see what I did there (totally stole that line from my bf. Thanks honey!)
Sure I may not have been brought up on a silver platter but it was bronze! I for sure am not taking it for granted and hope to take it with me wherever I go so I can enjoy life more instead of worrying. So I'm not going to worry about my acting career, I'm just going to keep getting ahead step by step. I'm not going to worry about the greys in my hair - that's right!!! GREY!!!! I'm not going to worry about the grey in my hair.....I'm not... you can't see them anyway... there's only a few. Except I keep trying to pluck them but then more grow!! WTF!?!?!
I'm not going to worry..... I don't want wrinkles.... what have I become....