Earth 2 Angie

In Welland... and I can't sleep..

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 09:24:00 +0000

I'm tossing and turning and going nuts. Everything is going on in my mind and it's annoying me. I realized why I'm doing okay and not amazing with this new job. I'm not money hungry. I'm hungry for other things and I'm content with doing okay. In reality I'd much rather do amazing so I need to get out of that mind frame for at least another week. All that can be put on hold. I'm in hick town so I need to make the most of it.
...the toilet is making noises out of no where...
anywho, I'm still making more money here than anywhere else. I just wished I planned for things to turn bad like they did the last couple weeks... ooooohhhhh well... when this is all over I need to be away from people. Spend time writing and doing my thing, not listen to people's crap. I've been on such edge lately. I need to read a good book and write. Done.
Anywho.. I'm pretty sure I'm annoying my roommates... night

You wont' get anywhere without the blisters

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 23:06:00 +0000

I've been noticing a recurring theme in my life. Hard work pays off. There are people out there with less talent making more money doing what I want to do and it's all because of their hard work and perseverance. I'm a lazy person, but if you light a fire under my ass there is no stopping me. I just need to light my own fire which is hard. I can't get over how much people don't want to work hard. I'm just as bad as the next person but if you're worse than me then that's just unacceptable. I am the basic level for all things. If you are worse than me for work ethic, grammar, knowledge, talent then you need to step up your game. I always have to step up my game every day so imagine the work the rest of the world needs to do.
I'm also noticing I'm a lot more of a hard ass than I used to. The no nonsense attitude I had when I was a kid is creeping out now. I'm tired of my own excuses and the fact that I keep trying to give myself more is pathetic. I have nothing to complain about, I have a new job that's challenging but reaps great rewards, an amazing boyfriend, great friends and family, I really need to shut the fuck up. Your turn.

Patty Patty Puke Puke

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:15:00 +0000

It's been a while, gang! So great to see your smiling faces... just had a bit of a mental breakdown lately from going insane with money problems, relationships and just life in general. Like everything else, time goes on and things go up and down. I got past my low point and now I have a new job with big potential for me to move up and make big bucks! It's in sales and even though I'm not known for doing well in sales, for some reason, with this company, I can see myself excelling! I just needed the right product and group of people to cheer me on! I the company I'm working for, they're so positive and supportive. It's also great because when I go out to make sales I don't have to answer to anyone, I'm all on my own and I don't have to deal with moody customers.
I'm still working part-time as a waitress and when I worked last, it really made me appreciate my new job. I also have an appreciation for life in general. No matter how bad things can seem, you always have the power to change your situation. You are in control of you life, no one else. If you want to improve and do better, DO IT. I was a mess because my hours were cut and I couldn't afford rent and now I'm more excited about life than I have been in a while.
My commercial will be airing soon, I have the best boyfriend in the world, awesome people in my life and a new and exciting job to help me get to where I want to be. This year feels like the stepping stone to something big next year. Every year feels like it's getting bigger and bigger with more challenges and better rewards. I'm sitting in a coffee shop across from the man of my dreams, sipping my favourite drink (mocha) and writing. With everything I've been going through and dealing with the past couple years, I really do start to appreciate more of what I have. My sister has been especially great with teaching me that.

Life's not justice

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 03:31:00 +0000

I can't get over my anger towards the world and it's politics. I know I said I would stop talking about politics, but this is about humanity, not about which party to vote for. I feel like I can't keep sitting here waiting for the government to screw over more people from their hard earned money. Everyone is struggling and you have these millionaires trying to squeeze more money from these hard working people. They receive their big bonuses while screwing over consumers. For example, condos being poorly constructed but charging an arm and a leg to own. I think people need to start taking a stand. A stand against the government trying to tax us to pay off their insane spending of OUR money and a stand up as a consumer for quality!! I don't know how, but I really hope we find a way. I have no idea how to take a stand other than maybe getting a movement going. Apparently You Tube has one billion hits a day so maybe I can have my voice heard there. Maybe I could write a column...who knows, the world is my oyster and there are too many things I want to do-I think my head will explode. Maybe I will do what every other comic does and use my words to make people laugh at the whole situation but still have no one really do anything.

And I fainted...again

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 22:02:00 +0000

It's like my personal life reflects my career life. It keeps me on my toes all the time. I can never let my guard down because when I do...I fall flat on my face (figuratively and literally). I have a fainting disorder and anything can trigger a faint, especially dehydration, lack of food, standing for too long, whatever. I don't faint too often. It's been a few times a year lately.
Anywho the point is, I have to get my whole everything in check if I want to move forward. Get my eating habits, my relationships, my money, career, everything is going to the check out counter!
Now, it's the organizing and following through with it all is the problem. OOOHHHHH well. I'll figure it out.

And the beat goes on...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 00:53:00 +0000

The story of my life. Even when things get amazing, life goes on and it passes and then comes right back. I'm going to have to get used to my life being such a roller-coaster. I'll get jobs here and there but nothing is forever and that's something I really need to remember. The only thing I just started getting used to was KNOWING I have a permanent partner in crime. Everything (other than family) has been temporary at some point. Nothing in this business ever lasts. I have to keep pushing until I'm dead basically. There's always going to be another project, another plan, another goal.
I'm back to the drawing board to see what else I can do to get myself out there. I have a couple scripts I think I can create that has potential to sell or get made. Hell, if they can make "Bring It On: 15" then I'm sure one of my films can be made. When I think about it, there's so much I want to do and experience in my life it seems like it's all miles away, but I just need to hang in there because I can taste it. I've already had such amazing moments that no one has ever experienced or possibly dreamed to experience. I need to keep reminding myself to count my blessings and push myself to do better. Knowing my lazy ass, I have to!
Here it goes... round 13240876

WOOO!!!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 19:10:00 +0000

Soooo I went on my very first audition that I got from my new agent the other day. It was for a CBC radio commercial... and guess who landed the role... that's right this moi!!! WOOO!!!

So excited! It's also the first time my agent sent me out, so hopefully she will know the fury and get me a lot more auditions! I also have the chance to be an apprentice to join Actra! I don't know for sure but my agent said she thinks I'll still be able to be a part of my web sketch troupe if I'm in the union so that will be perfect!! I'm so happy I could pee my pants right now!!! Oh wait...I just did!! Ahem... not really.

Not to mention I could really use the money right now. Things are going really well right now I'm so excited! My first meeting went really well with my troupe, I just finished wrapping a short film and tomorrow I will be filming a commercial! This is one crazy ass week!! Keep it coming!!

The blessing meeter is going to explode!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 03:32:00 +0000

I'm visiting my folks at the moment and for some reason it feels like Christmas... I'm not sure if it's because I'm FREEZING or... no it's because I'm freezing. It's so strange to sleep in my old bed sometimes. It's like you went through so much in one room and then it's a museum peice and going back to see it is like reliving everything again...anyone else get that feeling? Just me?
It's so nice to see my parents. It's like going back to basics of life when I see them. My mind gets so clouded with what I need to do that the mix of quiet suburbia and my parents seem to clear my mind. I have that sense of calm when I'm with my boyfriend and thank god I do or I'd be a mess. I already am so what does that mean??
I am so proud of where I came from. I didn't have a rough life, I have a nice childhood and parents that raised me right. I learned that the important things in life are...money - ha! gotcha!
No, good friends, family and having fun. What is the point if you can't enjoy life? Money isn't money anymore anyway! It's just numbers...Congress proved that. Hey, if the country can be millions (or trillions in some cases...ahem....ahem...) in debt then what's a couple grand right?
I see the country as a little hypocritical if you ask me... the government tries to be a good parent and encourage their little ones to do the right thing to prevent heartache in the future. Guess what, life happens and you need to spend a little to move on. Or to make yourself feel pretty... come on now... we can't have poor AND ugly people all over the place... imagine the chaos!! In case some of you can't read sarcasm...that was not sarcasm.... see what I did there (totally stole that line from my bf. Thanks honey!)
Sure I may not have been brought up on a silver platter but it was bronze! I for sure am not taking it for granted and hope to take it with me wherever I go so I can enjoy life more instead of worrying. So I'm not going to worry about my acting career, I'm just going to keep getting ahead step by step. I'm not going to worry about the greys in my hair - that's right!!! GREY!!!! I'm not going to worry about the grey in my hair.....I'm not... you can't see them anyway... there's only a few. Except I keep trying to pluck them but then more grow!! WTF!?!?!
I'm not going to worry..... I don't want wrinkles.... what have I become....

I am slowly going crazy...1 2 3 4 5 6 SWITCH!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 16:21:00 +0000

Switch bitch! Ahem...sorry, I don't know where that came from....
I feel like I am loosing my little mind!!! I really think I need to start reading instead of watching tv.
Television seems to pull this on me. If I watch too much or feel I'm getting addicted I start to loose my mind! I get restless and loose sight of what I need to do. I feel like I've been twiddling my thumbs for weeks - what the hell?!
Last night I was feeling blue because I realized how far I am from my dream and where I need to go seems like it will be an eternity! I haven't done nearly as much as I wanted and I feel like such a failure. That just means I have to change my approach completely. How? I have no idea... I need to regroup and get my act together!! Hmmm I will start today! I work at 5 so I have the whole day - well half the day (yeah I slept in. Who's the champ? This moi).
I think I'll park myself outside, go for a walk and think things out. When I'm done that I'll go to the gym and then head to work.
Ever since I was a little wee one I ALWAYS needed my sleep or I'd turn into Super Bitch and eat your face off. It has evolved to me needing too much sleep. I tried everything! I wake up early but then I crash and end up having 13 hours of sleep! I try going to bed early and hope to wake up early but no! I wake up at the same time!! I went to bed at 11 and woke up at 10! No matter what I try, I always HAVE to wake up at 10! I put my alarm on for 7:30am and I end up shutting it off in my doze state when it goes off. There is no helping me... my boyfriend now is back on afternoons and when he was on mornings, him getting up at 5:30am would help me get up early but now I just sleep in like no one's business. He still gets up at an early hour either 7 or 8 he's up. I'm not sure what to do. I really want to get into the habit of getting up at 7:30 or 8 so I can at least take 9:30 classes at the gym and start my day earlier.
Any suggestions? HELP!

So far so good

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 03:27:00 +0000

I'm sticking to going to the gym! That's right! I'll be kicking asses before you know it!
I've been having a good week... I had a really good audition for a play and I landed a role in a short film! It's a cute romantic comedy - I'm so excited! I also went partying in Niagra Falls for my best friend's birthday and I had a blast! We partied hard that's for sure. I wanted to throw a party for one of my other best friends before she heads back to Montreal but I'll be filming that weekend so who knows what will go down. It might be a short notice thing but that's what makes it fun.
I haven't been writing as much as I've wanted though, but I think that's okay since I'm doing more acting - finally!! I just need a paying gig now.... sooo badly. Where's my acting money?! I'm broke bitches I'm broke! I'll be spending my week learning my lines and figuring out what to do with my character. I have her pretty much in my mind but if I want to take this whole acting thing seriously I guess I should do some research and get a real feel for her.

I had a really nice talk with my dad today. We were talking about drumming and he was letting me in on what he's had to deal with. He was telling me how the drummer is the silent leader of the group. You'd think it was the singer or lead guitarist but no! That's right....the drummer is the one in control of everything. The drummer is the back bone of the band obviously because we keep the beat. If you don't have proper time and a beat, you're screwed and you're not a good drummer if you can't keep a beat. He was telling me stories about all the different bands he's been in and how funny it is that no one but the drummer really knows how to keep time yet they always tell the drummer what to do. He told me to tell the band that you're going to do whatever you want to do and to not take crap from anyone! He said to know your limits and know your skills and don't let the band boss you around because when show time arrives, they have to follow you. It was really nice to hear what he had to say. I've only been in one band and I have so much more respect for musicians than ever. I don't know how they do it. I think I would go crazy being in a band. Too many egos going around... if I ever found a good group of people, maybe they could change my mind. For now though...I think I'll stick to playing in my parent's basement.

So...sore...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 01:05:00 +0000

That's right! I did it! I signed up for a gym membership and I plan to use it!! It's my job to be in great shape as an actor so I need to bring it!
Did I mention that I'M SOO SORE!?! I took a martial arts/aerobics class and it kicked my ass. I went swimming this morning so I could give my joints some ease. I really should have gone for a massage instead. I'm soo sor- oh yeah, I already told you that.
But I'm SOY (yes, I said 'soy') excited about getting in shape! I'm going to try to go at least 5 days a week and soon enough I'll be in tip top shape! I hope... I'm even seeing a change in my attitude! The endorphins are really kicking in quick. I feel peppy a lot more than I used to. I feel more relaxed too because I let out a lot of energy.
I took Ness out for a walk and he did so well! He doesn't like Toronto very much, too many people and it freaks him out and he begs for me to pick him up. Not this time - well, a couple times when the crowds were too big, also he could get stepped on so I had to rescue him. He walked in front of me and beside me and listened to everything I told him! It was so cute when he was chasing the pigeons away. For those that don't know, Ness is my Chihuahua (even though he kinda looks like a mini deer).

Oprah patrol...that's right!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 01:58:00 +0000

So... it's the Toronto International Film Festival and guess who's going to be there??? Well, everyone - including the love of my life....OPRAH! I won't be doing the lame thing by standing out with thousands by the red carpet, no. I'm going to do the creepy kind of fan thing and patrol the ritzy areas of where she could be going/staying. Just seeing her would be enough. I wouldn't even know what to say to her if I ever did meet her. Probably something cliche and lame like "I love you, you have changed my life and opened my mind to so many things! You're my idol, my hero, my one and only"... okay maybe too much...
I've been feeling so down, restless and agitated lately. I thought it was boredom at first but I then realized that I missed playing drums. It's been months since I've been able to sit down and play to MY music. I could always go to my folks place and practice but it's such a trek. I'm thinking of going to Rehearsal Factory someday and rent out a room to just practice for an hour. I was crying because I feel like a piece of my soul is slowly getting further from me. I can't go for a long time without a stage or playing. I haven't acted with other actors in sooo long. Acting and performing is a big part of who I am and I recently been feeling like I'm about to explode!
It's like a big ball of energy is inside me just waiting to get out... it's like I want to run laps around my apartment building and scream at the top of my lungs! I just have to get out there!!
I have an audition tomorrow (thank god) and I will use that as a chance to perform. As short as auditions are, I need those short moments to remind myself of why I'm doing this. Those little moments that I get to act give me such confidence and inner peace, it makes all the rejection and struggles worth it because once I do land something... it's going to be great! I could act all day every day!!
I also realized that Drums give me the same affect. I never thought drumming was a big part of me and who I was. I just saw drums as something to do when I'm bored. I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder. I've been having the biggest urge to lock myself in a room for hours and just play till my hearts content! Someday soon I will. I need to. I have to. For my sanity!!

An actor's life for me...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 11:46:00 +0000

I've been thinking about my life. I've always treasured the simple things such as my art, not getting swept up in materials. I wish I could just lock myself up in a room all day and write with no distractions. I feel like my creativity is being sucked from me living with so many distractions. I only have myself to blame. Work is actually forcing me to write more. Whenever I'm working lunch and I have a couple hours to spare till I have to work at dinner again, I write. There's so much I want to say and express that I feel overwhelmed. Maybe writing isn't the best way to go about it. I used to do sketches...maybe I can take up sketching...
LIGHT BULB!!
Perhaps I should look into making a short film... something to get my juices going... good old blog! I get the best ideas when I write in this puppy! Now the question is... what to write about...hmm...writer's block? Lame... or is it?? Yes, it is.
I want to just escape somewhere. I really need that loan. At least for Jan and Feb because work is going to be so dead. I could use that time to travel! Oh yeah..it's all coming together.
I know I'm not going through this alone...
I think I would be epically lost without CJ to inspire me. I'm already lost but even more so if he weren't there. I feel sad when he's not here. I bounce like a puppy when I see him. He makes me laugh and I enjoy everything so much more with him by my side. I feel like I can do anything. He gives me all the freedom to do whatever I want and that's what I need most. I wouldn't have gotten through these past two years as well if it weren't for him. He moved to Toronto for me...he HATES Toronto. I'll always be grateful. So here's to CJ, who keeps me on track and shows and tells me everyday how much he loves me.

ohhh politics...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 15:00:00 +0000

So, my friend showed me this article from CNN about how Obama wants input on the teacher's lessons to make sure that children work hard and stay in school. Apparently republican parents were outraged because they thought he would fill their children's minds with "socialistic propaganda" riiiiiiiiggghhhhttt..... cause Obama is a socialist... I don't think they understand socialism. People need to relax on that I think. You're America, (fuck yeah!) you're a first world country, you have freedom of speach, your biggest problem is that you're obese... you don't have it that bad. This isn't China so stop throwing around the word communism and socialism like you know what you're talking about. Also, did you forget who your last president was?? The mess he left for Obama...please calm down and have patience. Yes your economy sucks so I understand that you're frustrated, but he is working on it!! It's going to take a long time. He even said that it will be years before you start to see some improvement and it hasn't even been one year and you're freaking out! He has people working on the economy so while that is going on, how bad is it that he's working on making your health care availible for everyone and your kids stay in school? Apparently that makes him an evil dictator... that is messed.
Anywho, I said something about it on my status on facebook and was shocked as hell when people were AGAINST me! Who knew I had crazy conservatives on my facebook.... I'm not huge on politics, but it really upset me to see how upset people were, and were saying "Huessien Obama is a communist" and crap like that - and I live in Canada!! We have free health care (which is kinda what Obama wants for his country) and instead of going "yeah baby! Health care here is awesome! I don't have to worry about going broke if I get sick. Go Obama!" No... he's evil. Yes it's going to be rocky cause obviously, he's changing the health care system it's a work in progress. How dare he try to give poor people a helping hand...that asshole....
Okay, I said what I wanted to say. I'm done with politics. Everyone has their oppinion and no one will budge so there's no point in getting people angry...especially stupid people that don't agree with me....har har

Allergies are killing me!!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 02:29:00 +0000

I've been having the hardest time sleeping lately. Waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose...stupid nose... due to this I've been feeling so frail. I'm not used to feeling so slow and defeated going to work - I'm not even sick! Speaking of work, I've been getting pretty good money from work so hopefully I can afford a class!! Clearly I haven't been working out since I've been feeling so weak. I haven't been eating so great either...ahem...cheesecake and pasta is healthy though, right...?
Talk is cheap. Its so easy to psych yourself up to do greater things but then you get lazy and sometimes you don't even have the energy to face the world.
I saw an advertisement for Dove about how they're trying to gain more self esteem on girls. I think it's fantastic! As an actress I find it so hard to get ahead because of the competition. It's not just about talent these days... the girls I'm up against are sizes 2-6. Even if I was an amazing actress, I wouldn't get as much of a chance landing roles being a size 8. That's why I'm always slapping my wrist for not working out everyday and eating cheesecake. It's so unfair that you have so many actors of different shapes and sizes with no problem getting work. Majority of actresses HAVE to be small and pretty. You can count on your hand the actresses with "character" but when it comes to actors, they have it a lot easier. Micheal Cera who - let's face it - isn't your traditional leading man, but that awkwardness he has works for him and he's the leading man of the decade! Nerds are in! Yet, even if they want the nerd girl, she still is gorgeous. Hell, Ugly Betty (America Ferrera) is lovely!!
So that's my rant! Till next time

Debt managing

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 03:52:00 +0000

Just had a great convo with my best friend, talked about what's going on in our lives. I'm going to investigate getting a loan to pay for my acting classes. I nearly had a heart attack today... I couldn't find my receipt for my imac that I got a couple months ago to put in my taxes forms. I have a new computer to edit videos and a great camcorder to MAKE videos...so what am I doing sitting on my butt? The whole reason I got them was to use them to my advantage - GASP!
I have an audition in a couple days and they gave me sides to read but they didn't specify who they wanted me to read for. I asked but they didn't get back to me....LIGHT BULB MOMENT!!
I have a camera.....I have a computer....I have a script....how about I video tape me doing all the characters in the readings and send it to them?! Plus, I don't have to worry about being late for work! Its almost too perfect...we shall see what happens! Yes!! Victory!!
Everything is slowly coming together.... except I'm still very lazy and can't get the energy to go running everyday like I promised. Ho hum, pigs bum.
I could also put the loan towards a gym membership... hmmm very interesting...
Anywho, I'm off to bed! Nighty Night!

Julie and Julia

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 03:18:00 +0000

Had I fantastic day with my mom today! I visited my parents for the weekend and spent all day with my mother. I haven't been able to visit because of my work sched so it was nice to finally spend some time with her. We saw "Julie and Julia" which was really good! It's a really feel good movie, makes you want to get up and do something (hence me writing my blog).
I'm having a harsh reality of my life right now. It's very expensive to be an actor apparently. A weekend class costs $400!! What actor has that kind of money lying around?! I sure as hell don't! Not to mention I've been told I have to keep up with the trends, make sure my hair is freshly cut every 3 months and that means going to an actual nice salon... no more super cuts for me.
So, with classes, fashion and printing photos and whatnot, we're looking at an average of $600/mo! They were not kidding when they call us "starving artists".
I need to find a way to at least cut that down to $400/mo and I'll be able to pull it off. I just need to save every penny I make... oh the glamorous life of an actress. The only thing now is that I have to get a clue about what I'm doing.
On the bright side, I finished my first draft of my screenplay! YAY! I'm so excited about writing the second draft! It went from a fluffy romantic comedy to a sort of drama comedy... we'll see where it goes! I hope to someday have it made. Stay tuned!

New Start

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 02:35:00 +0000

So my agent is no longer my agent. It's pretty sad actually, her daughter became very ill and she had to cut her roster in half and I was one of the people that got cut.
I emailed almost every agency in Toronto and I received 4 replies! YAY! So now I have to send them my non-existent demo that I have to make by Monday and send those out so I have a chance to get signed by one of them soon!
There's a lot I still need to do to prepare for myself for the future. First, I need to get a new agent, save some money and pay off debt as well as get in fabulous shape and hopefully have enough to visit my family in Los Angeles by Jan! I'm forming a small sketch troupe with a buddy of mine from comedy school and my boyfriend! I hope that gets us a little further.
On top of that I have the play and film I'm writing that I want to get done soon....wow...this is going to be a nightmare. I'm trying to not spend ANY money that I don't need to, so hopefully not being able to go have fun will force me to stay home and write or create.
Hmmm....I just had a thought....if I stick to my plan and get everything done this year...the one-woman show, the screenplay, the sketch troupe AND get a new agent...
All this will not be for nothing! I KNOW that if I actually do all this it won't be for nothing. I just have a feeling that something amazing will come from it all. It feels like everything is slowly coming together peice by peice and now I'm being tested. Finishing what I say I'll do is a test to my word and dicipline. Call me crazy, but I better pass this test! The reward will be everything I'd hope for...cause if it's not....I will go crazy haha

Why does my eye hurt?

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 04:33:00 +0000

From crying!!! That's why!! No, not really. It really does hurt and I'm a little nervous because there doesn't look like there's anything wrong with my eye other than it feels bruised...eek!
Anyway, I have had a really stressful week. Some family drama that has been a little rough but oddly enough, it brought my boyfriend and I a lot closer and I'm slowly starting to find my old self again through all the anger.
I think I need a break from people. Wait. I NEED a break from people! Everyone is just annoying the hell out of me lately. All anyone does is bitch and complain and not do anything to help themselves and I can't take it anymore. Anything anyone does annoys me because it's either very stupid or I just can't understand their logic behind it. I found out why I have been fainting a lot and apparently I am a "clinical fainter". So...I'm low on sodium so I need to have more soups and always stay hydrated.
I just filmed a short film that was a lot of fun to shoot. I finally got to act (which has been too long since I got a gig) and I had a lot of freedom to do whatever I wanted in terms of acting decisions with my character. The director and I were basically on the same page which was great to bounce ideas off of.

So basically, I'm going away to visit my friend for a couple days to get away from everyone at home. Everyone is stressing me out and I don't need it right now. Once I re-group and relax a bit, I can go back refreshed and get things done. I CANT TAKE ANYMORE CAPTAIN!!!
I'm done and out!!! I also need to go to the spa!! Oh god!!

Post 23rd Bday!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 17:34:00 +0000

Hey hey!
I had a fabbity fab fab bday yesterday! I went with my friend Brian and my sister Laura to my folk's place. The two Ashley's followed suit and we just hung out all day! My sister made food (amazing!) and my dad even helped with cooking and cleaning! That's a rare thing to happen and that alone made my birthday!
We walked around Streetsville, sang songs, talked anthropology (yeah don't know how that happened). It was really great and I'm so happy I could spend my bday with people I love. The only thing was, my mom was in Thunder Bay for my uncle's wedding but I got to talk to her and my relatives and they were pretty wasted on wine so that was pretty funny.
My poor baby hurt his back when I got home to him. He got me a bunch of chocolate (smart man. Except I'm going to have to store it away so I don't eat it all at once lol. Why does he torture me?!)
He says he's going to plan sometime nice for me...I hope it includes cleaning the bathroom. Oh god, I sound like a wife already... pass the sex, I want a clean apartment!!

The Future looks bright...it better

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 25 May 2009 17:58:00 +0000

So I auditioned for a band but it wasn't the right mix. First off, the band wasn't even complete! It was only a singer and guitar player. Their songs were really good though and I jammed with the guitarist (who was awesome) but the style wasn't what they were looking for. They said I was the best they've seen though! I told them about my sister and they want to see her haha.
I think I have the idea for my one-woman show and I'm really excited about it. My wonderful boyfriend help me with the idea and I think it's going to be really fun!

I'm obsessed with Lost!! That's alll Ive been doing these past couple weeks is watch it from the beginning! CJ is a big fan and he showed me the pilot and I was hooked! Any fans out there, share the love!!

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Wed, 13 May 2009 18:58:00 +0000

I'm so excited! I emailed a bunch of people to get put on a list to do stand-up and I'm meeting with a band this weekend! I really hope it all goes well. These guys are really serious about getting into the music industry so if I can make it with them then giddy up! Just working with these guys would be a great experience. They really want to try to get a record deal and such but I know the odds and I'm not holding my breath. If anything I'm doing it for the experience because the rush you get being on stage and creating your own music with a group is just amazing!
If I can go back into stand-up that would be wonderful as well! I just want to get out and do stuff. I want to experience as much as I can while I'm here. Dreaming isn't enough, I have to go out and get it. I'm not sure what's next, the band could end up not liking me, I don't get a call for stand-up, but I tried and I'm going to keep trying. I'm thinking of creating a sketch comedy group again to see how we do. I'm sick of being in this creative rut. I haven't done anything in a while and I need to get out there and explore what I'm capable of.
Here I go...wish me luck...

So much to do, sooo lazy...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Tue, 12 May 2009 16:27:00 +0000

Whenever I realize the amount of stuff I want to do and can do, I get very sleepy. It's so much easier to take a nap. Then again, my "naps" last at least a couple hours...eeek! I was so pumped to get some writing done but then my dog was sleeping on my lap. Well, I couldn't just leave him...you know, he was all...sleeping and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz alright!! I'm guilty of taking the lazy way out!! Oh god!! I'm working out today to make up for the last *cough* three days of not doing anything.
Good news though! Due to my "nap" I couldn't sleep at night (go figure) I was doing some research online and applied to many stand-up spots as well as...drumming gigs!!! YAY! Someone already called me back for a jam, so you never know! I might be in a band soon!
I also have a new job that I'm excited about. The people are super nice and it's a really great restaurant - Casey's. I am so happy that I'm back in the restaurant business instead of bars. The hours are far better to work with. So far I've only been working two and a half hours a shift! Once training gets done it'll be sweet. I'll be working three or four hours and making the same amount as if I were working nine hours at my old place.
So now I have no excuses, I'm working 20hrs a week so I should have enough time to get stuff done.
The stuff I want to do is a little much, but this is in a span of 5 years. I have at least 5 screenplays to finish, I want to be in a band, of course I need acting work, I would actually like to make my own film from my screenplay, I have a musical I want to make, my podcast and theres a lot more so I need to get crackin!

American's Next Top Model makes me want to purge

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Thu, 07 May 2009 17:30:00 +0000

I was watching "America's Next Time Model" yesterday and I watch it sometimes because I will admit, it is entertaining. It floors me though every time I watch it. I know people in the fashion industry are crazy, but oh my god! Really?! You have this annoying bitch of a man with an enormous ugly bow on, telling you that YOUR outfit looks bad? HAHAHAHAH ohh isn't that the pot calling the kettle black.
Also, I know it's the industry to be youth obsessed, skinny obsessed and yet, no one has a problem with this? Industries change all the time why can't this one be the most flexible? I can't remember the name of the girl that got voted off, but she looked too old for the industry. She's 25! Oh god, I'm going to be 23 and luckily I'm an actor so I have options. Honestly, I wasn't a fan of the girl's face either so I get why she was voted off but THEY say it was because she looked "mature". Why are they obsessed with youth anyway? Most teenagers are stupid! (haha jk) I think the fashion industry is sooo funny. The fact that people take clothes and snottyness soo seriously is so pathetic in my eyes. Yes we're talking millions of dollars so of course they're going to take IT seriously but those people take THEMSELVES sooo seriously it's laughable!
If I want to wear socks with sandals (don't worry, even I know that's a foe-paw...is that how you even spell it?) who are you to freak out on me as if you caught me throwing a baby off a balcony?! A bad outfit is not the end of the world, we are not hurting anything other than your eyes (which you can look away by the way).
Basically, the moral of the story is, yes fashion is fun and pretty and all that, but I really hope people take it less seriously because it can be really scary that THESE people are in control of how we proceive ourselves. These crazy people wearing ugly large bows, telling young pretty girls that they look old, these people that say a size 2 is an ideal size, these people that talk utter nonsense! You can not let them tell you that you're not good enough. The clothes in the magazines, the cosmetics, how slim you should be doesn't mean anything. These people are messed and I think we need to look at them as such. Why would I take advice from these people? Why would it mean so much for me to care? That's just how I look at it. Whenever I see Vogue or whatever big fashion magazine is out there, I take it for what it is. A waste of trees.
But seriously, if I were to ever be on the cover that would be cool. Not gonna lie.

What's the deal...

noreply@blogger.com (angie) — Mon, 04 May 2009 03:46:00 +0000

Women are fucking up! How do men have all the power? Didn't we have a movement not too long ago? Did we forget that? Men, I think, have figured out our weakness and have not let it out to the public because they know the terrible outcome that will fall suit - women will stop giving it up!
We all know about using sex to manipulate men. I'm pretty sure there are other ways but we haven't found any. Or perhaps the sex has worked so well in the past - but what about the girls that don't want to go about that route? They still will get burned and there's no hope in hell they can come back with vengence!
I know this is kind of going against women power, but think about it! I was just at a bitch fest the other night and I can't believe how many of my fellow gals get blind sighted by some dude! Are we doing something wrong? Probably, fifty fifty. There are more sides to the coin, but doesn't anyone want some sort of justice? Wouldn't you just love to stick it to the guy that did you wrong?
Believe it or not, the worst thing you could do to a guy is to stick to what you promise. If he does something that is a DB (deal breaker) and you threaten to leave? LEAVE!!! There!!! Justice is served! If you were a good girl friend, you leaving will distroy him! MWHAHAHA...ahem.
Trust me, I know it's easier said than done. I've been there before with the back and forth and he not believing what I was telling him because I didn't follow through. Men, I think, are like children. You tell a kid that if he doesn't stop throwing things you will take away his Playstation. Guess what. He doesn't stop and you take away the Playstation - but give it back as soon as he starts throwing a tantrum and promises he'll be good. So to get him to shut up and leave you alone, you cave. Oh, big surprise, he continues to be a doucebag! Get where I'm going with this?
Okay I'm done giving you ladies a lecture.
Men!! Really?? You need to try harder! There are some rules that you need to bend. For instance, don't hit on a girl the way you would want to be hit on. I'm sure it would be cool for once if a chick came up to you and said, "hey cutie...how about you let me buy you a drink and I let you fuck me". No. Eww. First off, do I really need to remind you that we are PEOPLE not objects?! Do I look like a blow up doll? Then don't treat me like one. Now, it's our jobs as women to point this out to men and hopefully the word will spread and men will tone down the lameness. A key to a woman's heart is through laughter. So if you're not funny...learn to be charming. If you're not charming, be clever, if you're not clever, be nice. If you're not nice, keep your mouth shut and pump iron. Same to you ladies. You have to have SOMETHING going for you or you'll find someone just like you...useless. Then you'll breed more useless people that only take money from the government and to get more government money they pump out more useless soon to be rapists people because they don't have any skills...woah, where's the road? What was I writing about? Meh...